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Sometimes laughing at yourself is all you can do…

I get reality checks all of the time. People with more kids, more problems…more ANYTHING that reminds me that when I feel like I am struggling to keep it all together there is always someone else conquering a much bigger challenge.

Last week, I was terrified to take my newborn out of the house and drop my son off at school while toting a carseat…such a silly thing to worry about when women do this every single day!  I stress over little things like how to shop for groceries while toting the same newborn or what I will do if the baby CRIES in public.

I remember having these fears with Morgan, but it was sink or swim those first weeks while we were living in the hotel in Vietnam. We had no choice but to get out there and do stuff, even if it meant taking the baby without a carseat on a taxi ride to get there! Trial by fire always seems to be the way things work…it was either that or live on room service and miss seeing the incredible city of Hanoi.

Little by little mothering becomes easier. I’ve conquered my fear of public breastfeeding (my coordination has improved and I am no longer flashing hapless bystanders!) and I am learning to juggle a toddler and a baby a bit better each day.

Morgan has been a dream–even though he’s regressed a bit on potty training and had some epic near 3 year old tantrums. He loves his little sister and gives her kisses, replaces her binky when it’s lost, and generally tries to help in any way that he can. A few nights ago he placed his treasured “airplane blankie” over Leighton’s little bare legs and told me that baby was “cold”. I almost held my breath, knowing how attached he is to that blanket and I could see the little wheels turning in his head after he did it…part duty to his little sister’s chilly legs and part worry about his security blanket.  He finally resolved the issue by picking up a lesser loved blanket and telling me that “Leighton likes this one” and gently replaced it. I hugged him and told him that his airplane blanket was special and that Leighton definitely liked the other choice better 🙂 

I am still woefully sleep deprived. Leighton was up every hour-2 hours last night. This bit of magic seems to occur every few days and it really throws us for a loop. I try to get up quickly and let Jeremy sleep because our routine on the weekends is that he gets up with Morgan around 7am and I get a few extra hours of sleep then.

Leighton is rarely a “sure thing” on schedules…but she does seem to consistently be asleep from 7-9:30 am. During the week it allows me to get Morgan to school and run a quick errand and on the weekend it allows me to catch some zzzz’s.

Next week I have my 6 week follow-up with the ob after delivery. I am hoping to be cleared for exercise and able to return to the pool. I feel like a wad of chewed bubble gum. All but 3 lbs of the baby weight is gone, but I had an extra 10 coming in to the pregnancy that I was determined to lose. It will take a while for my stomach to return to normal size…but overall I am not unhappy. Nursing burns a ton of calories and I have been eating lots of cookies now that gestational diabetes is not an issue!

I have one week left of the lovenox injections and then will likely be on baby aspirin and folate for the rest of my life. There is so little conclusive research on the MTHFR gene mutation–but I have seen two relatives hospitalized for blood clots this past year and I don’t want to take chances. I need to be proactive and be healthy for my family!



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Sleepy sleepy

I’m pretty tired right now. I think for the first week after Leighton’s birth, I was on some sort of Mommy high…popping out of bed in the middle of the night for feedings like a manic jack in the box. Now, she and I are so in tune that I wake about 5 minutes before she does and seem to just “know” when my baby is hungry.

We’ve got a good routine so far. I love that from 5-6am, Leighton and I have “our time” and that Morgan wakes shortly after she is fast asleep again and tip toes into my room to crawl into bed and snuggle with Mama. He and I enjoy another hour of peaceful togetherness before I take my littles into the kitchen to begin making breakfast and start our day.

Morgan went back to school for the first time since Leighton’s birth this morning. We did half a day because he has been telling me for four days in a row ” I go to school. I miss my friends”.   He loves having his grandmothers here and now his Aunt Maggie is here too–but nothing replaces his little buds at school and some quality time with his peeps. He came home at noon covered in lunch and playground dust…happy as a little clam and is now out in the pool with Maggie and Nana. I love it!

As for me, I am napping when I can and hanging in there. I am still very grateful to have plenty of help and support while things are so centered around the newborn feeding schedule.

My beautiful babies.


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3 More days and 4 more shots….

I’ve actually been too tired to nest these past few days…which is probably a relief for Jeremy and Morgan 🙂

My husband is incredible! He’s gotten up with the Mo-man 2 days in a row so that I can sleep in (until 10am!) and he’s been home to give me my Heparin shots which hurt SO much less when he does them for some reason. I think it has to do with the fact that I am still so chicken to hub the needle and do it so slowly that the pain is just drawn out, where he just gives it an expert jab and it’s over.

Both of my hips are black and blue–we’ve run out of excess skin in the belly area and have to put them in my hips and thighs. Guess excess skin will not be an issue when I do my 6 weeks of Lovenox after the birth….I’m imagining my tummy will look like chewed bubble gum 🙂

We installed the car seat today–which still seems presumptuous to me after losing our first baby. I am trying to go with it and have faith that everything will be ok. I just know from my online support group that bad things happen, even at the end and I am staying a bit guarded.  I do appreciate all of my friends who have patiently listened to my fears without judgement and not tried to get Mary Sunshine on me.   We’ve made it this far and things are looking good for us. We just need to hold on to that and BELIEVE that the best is in store for us.

J’s grandfather made his Sunday call today to wish us well. He’s an absolute doll and I love it when I get a chance to hear his happy voice on the phone. I think he’s 97 years old and could not be more adorable if he tried.  He’s looking forward to the arrival of his third great grandchild and I can’t wait for them to meet.  I treasure a picture of Morgan and his cousin Sullivan sitting on Great Grandpa’s knee during one of our summer trips to upstate NY. Cute as can be!

We swam in the pool today and enjoyed lunch out as a family. I’m feeling like an enormous whale woman with the belly right now. I put on a two piece today and cracked up. Some people totally rock it–hopefully my neighbors weren’t scarred for life if they happened to see over the fence 🙂

I plan to try to clean up a bit tomorrow in anticipation of family arriving on Tuesday. J did the grocery shopping today so we will have some options in the coming week.  I cannot believe it’s happening NOW.

****Oh! On a completely unrelated note, I wanted to share a super easy adaptation for Strawberry Shortcake that I came up with last week.

I made the shortcake using Bisquick heart healthy baking mix’s recipe for Bicuits–substituting half and half for the milk called for to make it very rich (and less heart healthy) and added a teaspoon of vanilla extract.  You can do either a drop biscuit style short cake or roll the dough into a circle and score into 6 triangles for a shortcake that looks more like a scone.  I sprinkled a packet of turbinado “Sugar in the Raw” on top of the dough for sweetness.

The berries consisted of a pint of strawberries slightly smooshed with a potato masher, lemon zest (about 2 tsp) and a Tablespoon of Grand Marnier. I added 2 tsp sugar but you can adjust that to taste depending on the sweetness of your berries. This was left on the counter during the baking of the shortcake and dinner to let the juices develop and the flavors to blend.

To prepare: simply slice the shortcake in half and mound with fresh berries. Add whipped cream and garnish with additional berries. Serves 4-6 depending on how generous you are.

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My Saturday–things that I want to remember

Right now I cannot find the camera….which doesn’t bode well for next week 🙂 But we’re having a wonderful day as a family and I wanted to write something GOOD to remember that even though pregnancy was stressful and crazy for me that there were great days where I was just happy to be a mom and a wife and to feel so much love in our home.

Today we worked on Morgan’s room–putting in a new book shelf and arranging furniture so that it looked lived in with the crib gone. I tackled my fear of crafting over the past week and made a collage portrait of a big frog that matches the one on his bedding. Morgan loves it! He keeps telling me “Thank you Mommy for making my frog!” We hung it low over the book shelf so that he can enjoy it. I see all of the flaws in it–he thinks it’s great! That’s family 🙂

Jeremy rearranged the paper lanterns to better our view of the little green guy and Morgan happily handed him tools and supervised in between rocking his baby doll and diapering it before putting her down for a nap. My heart swells when he makes connections like “baby has little pooh diaper–Morgan wears big boy underwear!” He tells his baby doll that she’s cute and he loves her. He wants all of his future siblings things to try out on his baby doll. Dolly has rocked in the bouncer, worn several newborn diapers, had her first binky, and wears mittens so that she doesn’t “Scratch her face”. Jeremy observed that our little guy is waaay more comfortable with these tasks than mommy. Funny but true!

We had lunch at a local chinese restaurant and Morgan insisted on taking every bite with his chopsticks. We discovered a new passion for Crab wontons and Chicken Lo Mein. It’s rare to see him get enthusiastic in a restaurant so I was happy that he dug in! When he was done, he sat in my lap with his blanket and told me how much he loves me. My heart feels like it’s swelling today for this sweet and polite little boy who is so kind. He appreciates every little thing right now and it is wonderful.  We use a lot of positive language in our home and it is shining through in the way that he speaks to us.

On the way home, he asked for a haircut–so J dropped me off at the house and the boys headed back to the barber shop. I could tell that Jeremy was quite apprehensive, he hasn’t handled this solo before. Morgan is a champ during hair cuts, so I know everything will be fine and he will be looking even MORE handsome for his Nanas when they arrive next week.  He’s learning that boys are handsome and girls are beautiful and it is so cute to hear him say “Mama, you Boo-tee-full”  He has me wrapped around his little finger!

I’m still anxious, but feeling more centered. I only have a few more of the dreaded Heparin shots to go and then we will meet our newest family member. Can’t wait!

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Senorita Psycho

The hormones have whipped into a frenzy–making me nervous, prone to cleaning, and  I haven’t slept in a few days…Thank you leg cramps that wake me up at 3am and often have me pacing the house…or might it be the awful heart burn and acid reflux that made me kneel before the porcelain gods last night and offer forth my dinner?

With so much going on inside of my body–the stuff on the outside seems overwhelming and exhausting. I am trying my best to keep up with a very busy boy this weekend and frustrated that I cannot carry him very much or sit on the floor to read stories. Belly is in the way of just about EVERYTHING. I also find that my attention span stinks and I drift off every few seconds with such earth shattering thoughts as–Did I pack socks for the hospital?? My swiss cheese memory does not provide the answer and it is back to the little blue suitcase for confirmation.

I keep feeling this wild fight or flight response in these last few days–the desire to move out of my body and into some place calm where I can lie down comfortably  or complete a sentence without  stumbling.  It’s like I’m inside a computer screen with my “to-do” list scrolling down the monitor…OVERLOAD.  Poor Jeremy–there is probably nothing more that he would enjoy than moving out for a week as well. He is completely baffled…as in “Who are you and what have the aliens done with my wife? Where is DINNER?”

Even worse…is the realization that I am aware of how odd this time is and seem powerless to stop the hormone filled mood swings and constant Kooky behavior.

I screamed at my new cell phone last night when it didn’t work properly. I endlessly polished the side door of my car after noticing water spots left over from this morning’s trip to the car wash (SOOOO not me) and I bemoan the fact that I cannot lift heavier furniture for a good vacuuming (even though the maid was here on Monday).  I can lose 30 minutes of time agonizing over whether or not the yard will die if I am not able to water it and think the dog resents me for having a baby. She just has that look!

Wow. Adoption nesting was much more pleasant. I am ready for this little one to vacate the premises and to be myself again.


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If possible, I think that baby has dropped even more in preparation for the big day.  I am now in full waddle!  I had my final ob appt before the induction and she confirmed that I was measuring 2 weeks less than the previous week. Weight gain seems to have stopped at 24 lbs–I had made it to 25 (my personal goal) but lost a pound and a half over the past week.

My Gestational Diabetes seems well controlled as long as I stay away from raisin bran and rice 🙂 I miss cereal like crazy and my body seems to have responded to the loss of my best source of iron by quickly making me anemic in the last few weeks.

I’ve gotten my blood drawn 3x in 2 weeks and platelets checked to see how I am adjusting to the Heparin shots. So far so good except for the ridiculous stinging and welts that accompany the shots. OuCH!!!

Morgan’s daycare teachers took one look at me this morning and proclaimed that “Today is the Day”. I might have been inclined to believe them while I was contracting in the grocery store this morning…but I am still hoping to make it to our scheduled induction day. My mother will never forgive me if she isn’t here…and I will feel much better if it doesn’t happen in the next few days because my workaholic husband has as usual tried to schedule as much as possible before he takes some time off.

My little Mo is feeling good and his attitude has been so cute! He told me this morning that he “loves babies” as he peered into a little infant carrier this morning at school. I sang to him for a long time last night and tried to tell him how very much I love him. I just hope he adjusts well when the new baby arrives. His happiness is foremost in my mind right now. Keep us in your thoughts!


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Ta Da! We now have Pink Eye

I swear….the hits just keep coming.

After getting over last week’s virus, Morgan woke up this morning with green boogies sewing one of his eyes shut.  Joy!

I feel so sorry for my little man. He’s had a horrendous couple of weeks with the fever from hell and now this.  I know that daycare can at times be a cess pit for germs…but honestly the timing sort of stinks.

Jeremy is working tomorrow and I have 2 doctors appts. I  missed my ob appt last week because Morgan was sick then as well, so I am going to have to haul him to the hospital and hope against hope that Daddy can keep him occupied while I am hooked up to the monitors because they do not allow children in the diagnostics clinic.

My ob is a bit more flexible…but it still isn’t fun to take your nearly 3 year old to your appointments!  However, at only 2 weeks left to go,  I doubt that these appointments are optional. 

I’ve been controlling my blood sugar much better than in the first week–I think 3 weeks is pretty good for a learning curve! Mornings are still rough as I am still getting sick and don’t always want protein first thing in the morning.

I will post some of my successful meals since I’ve been getting a lot of hits on Gestational Diabetes.

  • Egg Beaters scrambled with 1 slice cheddar cheese and 1 pc toast.
  • English muffin (whole grain) with egg beaters/cheese and 1/2 c fruit
  • Ezeikiel Bread (sprouted grain bread with high fiber) with peanut butter

Ask me what I am craving these days?? A big honking 5 oz bakery bagel slathered in cream cheese….. or a stack of pumpkin pancakes with maple syrup…..oh why do we always want what we cannot have  😉

Lunch and Dinner are much easier for me– some sort of lean protein with veggies and the occasional carb (1/2 to 1 cup serving).  I miss waffle fries at Chik Filet like you would not believe!  But have sort of  found my replacement in broiled zucchini spears dipped in blue cheese dressing.  YES, I know that Blue Cheese is on the no-no list but have you ever heard of a woman beating her head against a rock screaming “If only I’d avoided the blue cheese!!”

BTW–I have to say that I am proud of Jeremy for adhering to Meatless Monday even while at the hospital this week! He told me that he ate butternut squash ravioli and I might have had a tear in my eye. That’s MY MAN!

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